A Case of the "Blah's"

I've been in a very lackluster mood lately. Usually when my boyfriend and I are together I feel fairly happy- he is always making me smile and laugh- but in general I don't feel inspired to do much, and I find it very hard to get out of bed and go to work in the morning. Once I'm there, I find it very difficult to stay the whole day. Is it because I'm not getting enough sleep? That could be part of it, yes. But it seems that I can't get that back on schedule, partly because I'm a night owl by nature. Is it because I haven't been taking any vitamin D and haven't for months, despite the fact that I was told a year ago my level was extremely low. For some reason I just have the urge to get away for a while; to where, I don't know. I feel as though I'm craving something new and different and I don't know why. Maybe I have some form of seasonal depression, who knows? I probably need some kind of counselor, I have been on an antidepressant for years and I probably need more than that. I've talked a little about the stuff I've been through in my life on here and it probably warrants counseling at some point. :) But I don't even know how to find a "good" one. How the heck do you go about finding a good counselor, one that is easy to talk to, etc? Oh well. We'll see, maybe once the weather gets better my mood will change. And I'll make some effort to get more sleep when I should be sleeping(yeah, right). I've called in to work one day a week for the last month and I'm lucky I haven't gotten in trouble yet. Then I'll sleep those days away instead of being productive. And I'll sleep Sundays away too. I don't need to be the person who sleeps all the time, then loses their job and is worthless. AKA my father. *sigh*

Obsessed With a Song

Ok, so I never write lately and that's bad. I need to get back in the habit but other parts of life seem to be taking over at the moment. And now I'm going to write something that is mainly just song lyrics and will probably not yield any kind of interest but oh well. At least I'll have a couple posts in April. I always seem to have some song I'm really into listening to at the moment, whether it's a few days, a few hours, or a few weeks. Obsessed is probably a strong word but oh well. This song came on when I was listening to iTunes on my computer the other day and I've been listening to it some and I do remember the person who used to think of it as one of their favorite love songs, which is the guy I used to date that I spent time with in Japan. I do seem to think about him on a daily basis, but not in a way that I wish to be with him. He does come into my dreams a lot however and that bothers me because I don't think that's something that should happen when I have someone in my life. I guess I can't control my dreams though. Anyway, back to the song. Here you go...have a nice day.

Love Song by Tesla

So you think that it's over,
That your love has fin'lly reached the end.
Any time you call, night or day,
I'll be right there for you if you need a friend.
It's gonna take a little time.
Time is sure to mend your broken heart.
Don't you even worry, pretty darlin'.
I know you'll find love again.
Yeah.

Chorus:
Love is all around you.
Yeah
Love is knockin' outside *YOUR* door.
Waitin' for you is this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you'll find love again, I know
Love is all around you.
Love is knockin' outside **YOUR** door.
Waitin' for you is this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you'll find love again, I know.

Chorus / Outro:
Love will find a way.
Darlin', love is gonna find a way,
Find its way back to you.
Love will find a way.
So look around, open your eyes.
Love is gonna find a way.
Love is gonna, love is gonna find a way.
Love will find a way.
Love's gonna find a way back to you, yeah,
I know. I know. I know. I know.

Sadness

I'm busy at work and I've written so little lately but had to put something down. My parents had to get their dog (Pebbles) put to sleep yesterday and it has made me quite sad. She was only 9 which I don't consider that old. They got her right when I started college so she wasn't a puppy I grew up with but she was a big part of everyone's life. I think it makes me even more sad when I picture the times she was around for my family and that she won't be there at those times anymore...greeting family members when they got home from work, always wagging her tail, loving the snow and hating the rain. But she's not in pain now and it's for the best. We'll miss you Pebbles.